I Need People.

I just realized I crave human contact. Like crazy.

For some weird reason the Iantivirus RP boards are down. As are all other fucking Invisionfree forums, I suppose. So for the moment, since I am not in the habit of receiving interesting e-mails at the rate that I would receive replies from a healthily functioning forum, and since I haven’t put enough good content into my blogs to have established a regular readership and receive comments at a decent frequency yet, I am finding myself trying out the Iantivirus and Monkey King forums’ URLs like mad. It could be that I’m not accustomed yet to the sudden drop of intensity in human contact. RPing like crazy yesterday, nothing but a couple of e-mails today. Or it could be that I just want to continue the adventures of Infinity. I’ve even got a new post written down in MS Word.

I don’t know why, I think I like communicating people more over the internet, in forums, e-mails, and chatrooms, unless they are slightly crazy people that I am totally comfortable with, like Wei Yun and my family. And trust me they are ALL slightly crazy. Including me. Except my mom. She’s probably the only sane person in the house. But I digress.

I’m craving human contact. So this is a pathetic attempt at one-way human contact, talking to an audience that isn’t actually there. This is what voice actors face? Talking into the microphone day after day without seeing anything or anyone? But I’m digressing again.

I’ve just realized that what I’ve thought was my anti-social tendencies was because I was surrounded by people I DIDN’T want to be with. And now I need some time to ponder that realization and evaluate the validity of it. Does this mean I’m now officially a misogynist and will go around killing anyone that annoys me? In my fantasies probably. In reality, I’m a coward who can’t even squash a cockroach. AND I’M DIGRESSING AGAIN. Where have my supposedly good essay-writing skills gone?

I need to RP. NOW. NOW. NOW.

…

(realizes the implications of the above statement, the incessant URL trying, and the unfocused rambling)

…I’m addicted to Iantivirus.

Shit.

EDIT: Iantivirus is back. BANZAI. Abbyforever even drew a lovely pic of Infinity for me. I can die happy now.