List of stuff to do.

Scratch the previous list. I have new stuff to do now.
1. Write the wuxia fic with Ryuu, Cya, Finni.
2. Record ‘If You Were Gay’ with Morri and Finni.
3. Record ‘The Internet is for Porn’ with Akatsuki, Ryuuzaki, Gina, Garrett, Callum, and (possibly) Abby.
4. …finish drawing Cya-chan. (me art skills sux but still)
EDIT: 5. Record ‘Barbie [...]

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Shuffle Shuffle Shuffle.

AHAHA so yeah I did a shuffle meme thing. Where you put your songs on shuffle and use them to answer random questions. I kind of used all the audio files in my laptop, so there were weird stuff popping out liek all the bits and pieces of song I recorded myself *winces* and oral [...]

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Random ramblings in the night.

Writing is my destiny.

Soul. Orbs. Formulate theory later. Soul is indestructible. It can be dispersed, not destroyed. In the same way that neutrons cannot be destroyed. Soul energy. Manifestation of soul. Love. You.

I want to write, yet I do not. The blank page, the blank mind. The silence of the night [...]

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Infinity and Cyamour: A Retrospective

The two-month hiatus is going to begin soon. So I made this post. As a requiem. In memoriam. Or something. Yeah.
Some time ago I constructed a timeline for Infinity’s RPs. And then I realized that it was in effect, a timeline of the development of Infinity and Cyamour’s relationship, cause almost all of Infinity’s RPs [...]

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Signs of Addiction: Reprise

…now whenever I post at another invisionfree forum I automatically think of ianti and I get depressed. T_T
*hits self on the head to get addiction out of mind*
….
*hits self doubly hard to get angst out of mind*
…. it occurs to me that I have angsting a lot lately. In RPs and in RL. GAH. (goes [...]

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Puke.

That’s what I feel like doing right now.
This phase of my life is over.
I will move on once there is nothing to tie me to it.
I will move on.
…..it was fun while it lasted……
….
Fuck it all. I’m leaving NOW.
HELL YES I’M LEAVING. *ROARS AND FLIES FREE*

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无题.

我是个很脆弱的人. 我很脆弱.我很脆弱.
我经受不起一点点的打击.
爱,就爱得太深.恨,就恨得太深.
到最后受伤的是自己.
太过依赖一个东西,就特别容易害怕失去,怀疑失去.太过依赖一个东西,其他的一切都会变得没有意义.太过依赖一个东西.
我很脆弱.我太脆弱了.
很讨厌这样的自己.
怀疑,质疑….. 绵绵无绝期.
我依赖,我爱,我付出一切的心,我的胸口是空的…..
心全都在你那里.
我害怕失去.
我害怕失去.
我害怕失去.
我怕得想哭.
我的心好痛.
Can’t think.
脑里一片空白.
讨厌讨厌讨厌.
I can’t think.

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Infinity and Me

The other day I was talking with Ethereally about our characters. We talked a bit about how we put elements of ourselves into the characters and did a bit of character analysis. And now I’ve gotten to thinking about how a lot of this is unconscious.
The character of Infinity was developed around his weapons, the [...]

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YAOI on iAnti: Ah, the memories.

Was just reading some Belial/Yukito CRACK porn. It was hot. Yesh. Even though it’s crack. There should be more yaoi hentai in the forums. Yesh. And I will make some. Yesh.
I remembered I got my first taste of yaoi lemons about 11 years old? 12 years old? Sometime back then. Must explain why I [...]

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Scream.

*opens mouth in a silent scream*
*scream*

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